the morning after

the first time i had loveless sex i was crushed by the morning after. i remember waking up feeling empty and unloved. i never want to feel that way again. when my last love and i made love for the first time, i told him that i hate the moring after. i hate feeling empty inside. he held me in his arms, kissed my forehead and said i will make sure you don't feel that way. reflecting back on our realtionship, his words were the purest moment of our relationship. that was the most sensual night of love making in my life. we held each other and sexed each other all night. the morning after i felt complete and whole. we shared our bodies with each other countless times again but nothing will ever top that first night...
good sex is like a drug you keep taking hit after hit searching for that first great feeling that you experienced when you were a novice. i myself am constantly searching for that balance.

definition of sexual balance: sex that is not only passionate, but is feels good (meaning i climaxed), warm and sensual.

i crave sexual balance more than ever now. note to self- seek a lover who well provide a positive morning after.