break up thoughts

breakups are always the worst. especially when you are home alone and thinking about just how great the sex use to be and just how good the dick was to you. i am not going to miss anything as much as how this guy use to put me to sleep at night and start my day off right. i remember reflecting on all the nasty things we did to each other the night before and how i can't wait to until the next time we are together. good sex is sooo addictive. its soooo hard to walk away from. i use to think about another ex like this too until we had our final encounter and i realized that the sex really wasn't as good as i thought. but i think it was because i was so into my last guy that i wasn't even trying to enjoy it. so i guess i say all that to say that i think i will officially be over the sex thing when i find myself knocking the boots with someone new and betta...

current lovin' update

its weird how i havn't written anything in here lately. my excuse for not blogging normaly is that i really didn't have anything to write about. but truthfully over the past 7-8 months i have been getting some of the best dick ever. its that kind of sex that you think about all day the next day and play over and over again in your head & grin to yourself thinking damn that nigga put it on me. its no wonder its so hard to walk away from it because its so damn good. i've found myself allowing him to sex me up in the craziest places. restaurants, cars, my stairs... where ever it really doesn't matter. its not just sex, we really make love. i mean its always passionate & tender but at the same time lustful & erotic. as little kim says his head game has me head over heels. this brother is truly blessed. i could kiss him for hours with both sets of lips. we got into our first REAL disagreement a few weeks ago. i thought it was over but when our eyes meet it was like we both melted into each others arms. i am not sure if its lust or love that we have but i know that i enjoy ever moment we spend in each others arms. i crave him when he's not inside me. i feel like i can be this freaky little naughty girl without any sexual hang ups. but what bothers me is the fact that i have been getting some of the some good ass dick and didn't bother to blog about it...

Get it together

Lately I’ve been thinking about you
And how your mind arouses me
Something about your swagger keeps me intrigued
To wanna get to know more about you
I want to reconnect
Back to the beginning
When we were learning
I want to tell you that I’m willing
To make time to get to know all about you
’Cause above all you’ve kept me into you
Which is a mission on its own!
Feeling like you’re too busy
To find out more about me
At different points in our lives,
Here’s to hoping we can land on the same page
And begin a journey together
Cause you mind arouses me
And your physical keeps me captivated for hours
I’ve got chills up my spine just thinking about you
And our initial connection
I think we need to gon’ ahead and
Get it together

Breast Cancer Walk

Hello blog peeps,

I just wanted to inform you that I am participating in the Breast Cancer 3 day walk on Ocotber 13-15, 2006. The walk is 60 miles and I am trying to raise $3, 000. I am looking for donations and they are tax deductible. Here is the link to my page. I'll keep you posted on how the fundraiser is going.

My Body...part II

You slowly begin to spread my legs and get me comfortable....I love how you look directly in my eyes...everything you do seems so deliberate and controlled...

I like a man who knows what he is doing...

You place your head directly between my thighs and slowly begin to lick...lick...suck..suck...

The gentle motion you create brings me back to where I want to be...

Heat rising...

Legs shaking...

Body tighting..

Pussy quivering...

I begin to quickly climax...

and as surely as I feel the intensity, you do as well....

And you come up with one quick motion and enter me again...

Fast and quick...

Pounding your thick, swollen and juicy manhood into every inch of my petite frame....

I am come like fireworks on the Fourth of July...

Head back...

of the edge of the bed...

Sweat dripping down my collarbone...

onto the floor...

but you dont come yet...

Telling me you are saving the best for last.

I smile because I already know there is only a few things left to try...to explore...and I am game because it is a place I aint never been before.

We both grown..so why not.

Spralled across my cum soaked sheets you reposition me...

With you standing up...and me on the edge of the bed...

I am dripping wet so this shouldnt be a problem....

And like a doctor with experience and precision to match, you talk my body through the most orgasmic experience to date...

You begin by slowly pushing the head in while slapping my ass...

The ass slapping takes my mind back to a more erotic place...

and you gently push inside of me...through a new place...unchartered and quite virgin.

You slowly work me...gently slapping my ass...me touching my clit...

It gets easier with every passing minute...

and you seem to lose more control with each passing stroke...

I dont know what turns me on more...seeing you in such pleasure or all the stimulation being given to me..

This session wont be long at all...

I feel you jump inside me...

that always lets me know where you are...how close you are...how good it feels...

"Oh baby...You cant give it to me like this too much....I might not act right"....you joke...

I dont even smile back because I know I got you...and you got me...

A sweet sexually mature dance we are in and where I thought you were the lead I find myself growing more and more confident....

"Let me ride it...I'm a big girl..." I say...

You smile and comply...

I gently climb on top of you and lower myself down...slowly...slowly...slowly...and I exhale...it is in just the right spot...

You squeeze my hips...and I squeeze you back...

You massage my clit...I moan...

I begin to rock and before I can count to 100 you have cum all in me...

and I am not far behind you...

We lay there...somewhat in awe and somewhat in confusion...

"Did what I just think happened, happen?"....

and to think that I almost didnt go out that night...

Baby Grind With Me

I know from the moment I see you come in I want to taste your body with every opening that I have.

The thought makes the eyes roll back in my head...and a gentle shiver slides down my body. You reaching out to me and I dont even know your name...

I like the way those pants fit you.

I like the way you do your thing.

I watch you all night long....me sitting quietly at the bar...alone

Afterall...a Lioness need not hunt in a pack....unless you are big time game.

I dont underestimate you...I just think I can handle it.

I close my eyes and imagine the width of you...the length of you beneath me.

Another gentle shiver.

I make my move...

"Hello...I am...you are...have you been here before...lets get together sometime...my number is"

Fast forward to the moment I am riding you...looking deeply into your eyes...

I love how you are so quick to strip naked. Your body is beautiful. I love how gentle you are and untouched in so many ways.

Maybe it was the look on your face...and the quiet groans you let out as I gave you head while driving...afterall..I think it was a new experience for you.

That night I owned your body and everytime I said "Come for me" you did. Such a good boy. Such a good listerner.

Maybe it was the sweet tilt of your head and innocent look you gave when I told you that you had a big dick. Apparently you didnt know. Bless you and your perfectly symetric manhood.

I allow myself to slowly slip down around you. Truly the sweetest moments are pentration and climax....when I am tight and barely adjusted to you....and you spread me...gently and use my wetness and the catalysis....I exhale.

You inhale.

I moan in sucession to your steady...unsteady...steady breathing...

You grip my hips....and I squeeze.

Steady...unsteady...steady....unsteady...

Makes me feel so good...

Everything they told me not to I want to do...to you...now...turn me around please.

You enter me from behind and I feel the sway of your motion...you are easy with me...a first...

I bite my lip as you give me a little more...

You nibble my shoulder as you cup my breast....you squeeze and push...

I feel it coming...I fight back...you stroke my clit...I feel it coming....you stroke my clit....you push...

You are giving me too much and I cant keep pace...

You shudder as I start to contract...now you cant keep pace...

You pull out to get your bearings....

You put me on my back and spread my legs wide for the next level of penetration...since I am so good and relaxed...

to be continued........

Where...oh where..has my dear sunshine gone?

I think I have lost my mojo. Once upon a time I used to masterbate 2-4
times a day. At work. At school. At home. In the car. On the
interstate. It didnt matter. Where ever I felt the urge, I made it
happen. I didnt believe it when boys use to tell me "girls get it the
same way we do..yall just dont admit it..." Well...maybe I was just a
late bloomer. Maybe I was just a closet freak and someone turned the
lights on. Who knows.

Recently, I feel like a kid who has lost interest in their Christmas
toys..you know...right around MLK B-day you dont want your toys
anymore and start looking for other shit to get into. That is how I
feel. Dick is just dick to me. Maybe I need to upgrade to a
3-some....I cant lie...the thought of two men and one of me sounds
exciting..but I have too many rules I would want to lay down...(i.e. I
admit I am a lazy lover so we probably wouldnt do much outside of
one in the front of me and one in back...two in back just is too much
like work...) I digress.

I have entertained the thought of me, another chick and a dude...but
then again..I am too lazy. I have broached the situation on more than
one occassion and have been proposition more times than I can
count..but it just seems not to go down. I know it is me holding
things up...but I just am always off kilter when it is show time.
Either I am too fucked up from drinking and smoking or too fucking
sober and my conscious reminds me how ugly the girl is.

I think I am facing a pretty serious situation.