the morning after

the first time i had loveless sex i was crushed by the morning after. i remember waking up feeling empty and unloved. i never want to feel that way again. when my last love and i made love for the first time, i told him that i hate the moring after. i hate feeling empty inside. he held me in his arms, kissed my forehead and said i will make sure you don't feel that way. reflecting back on our realtionship, his words were the purest moment of our relationship. that was the most sensual night of love making in my life. we held each other and sexed each other all night. the morning after i felt complete and whole. we shared our bodies with each other countless times again but nothing will ever top that first night...
good sex is like a drug you keep taking hit after hit searching for that first great feeling that you experienced when you were a novice. i myself am constantly searching for that balance.

definition of sexual balance: sex that is not only passionate, but is feels good (meaning i climaxed), warm and sensual.

i crave sexual balance more than ever now. note to self- seek a lover who well provide a positive morning after.

Tender Luv

"How's your clit?"
"Hey you know....sometimes she gets lonely..."

Now don't you wish every conversation started a lil somethin' like that. Ole boy must have known his phone call was interrupting a freaky dream. I'd fallen asleep waiting on his call to say that he was on his way, and I guess I had fallen asleep thinking about what this interlude would be like. It's been a minute and you know...you can only hope that this time would be as good as the last. Hmm...who knew it would be better. I don't know what it is about him that makes me a bag of nerves, but as soon as we were upstairs...my instinct was to turn on the tv...his instinct was to turn it back off. Aight bet. We're sitting there making small talk when I feel that moist tingling feeling beginning to form between my thighs. All I could think was damn we need to shake somethin..shit he was looking extra sexy in his corporate America get-up...and I didn't know how much longer I could hold out. He went to the restroom and I removed my jeans and panties and climbed under the sheets...trying not to make it obvious that I was ready for whatever. He comes out the bathroom and strips downtown to these cute orange boxers and climbs in next to me. He's holding me and we're talking and then we're kissing....and then he's touching...I don't what his immediate thoughts were when he realized that my DKNY shirt and bra was the only clothing that I had on, but I guess it didn't matter because after we began tasting each other it was on and cracking. He has that bittersweet male taste...my favorite flava. I lay back and hear him whisper..."Take control...I want you to tell me what you want me to do..." All I could whisper back was, "I want you to touch me and then I want you to taste me." Ask and you shall receive. He had my nipple in his mouth and was doing this slow sucking and tongue flicking thing that was driving me crazy. I'm caressing his head waiting patiently for his descent...I wouldn't have to wait long. He crawled in between my legs and began to sex me with his tongue. He started slowly...licking and sucking...but being the attune lover that he his...his pace increased as my breath quickened...he was letting up and I had no choice but to buss one. Leaving me in a daze he got up and went to the bathroom. "What's wrong..." I'm not sure what he said, but next thing I know he was back between my legs devouring me all over again...damn two nuts in a matter of minutes...he's talented. He kisses my thigh and then replaced his tongue with his dick. He took his time...moving in and out...side to side....I'm still in a daze from my last orgasm...when he looked me in my eyes and asked...are you gonna blog about me if I come to quick...yo...all I could do was laugh. At that point I couldn't be mad at him for getting his...I had already gotten mine...and since this wasn't our first encounter and I knew his stamina...it was all to the good. So he's still inside me and we're laying there talking...it was kinda sweet. He slowly slid out of me and got himself together to leave. I would have gone to sleep, but I had to go pick my homegirl up. He's lingering...we're holding hands and huggin...joking...and then it was time to go ...if only everything in life could be that sweet.

Ripped

Never ever...have sex drunk...

That Old Feeling

Its getting late and you call me over. I know its going down and the mere thoughts bring a smile to me. As I lay nervous, my heart racing through each beat. The phone rings and you realize this rollercoaster is getting cut short. I climb and position myself and I start to ride you. Scared to hurt you, but thrilled that I came . I can't take all of you I'm out of practice. Its been awhile since that old feeling, and I can't handle it. I'm scared of the pain as you flip me over and hit it like no other. You got some skills, but I need to breathe. The phone rings again and I climb you. All of you. Its a perfect fit. I realize that I've needed you. I quit the bullshit and fuck the shit out of you. You hang up and decide to let me feel all of you. Its everything I remembered. I finally got that old feeling. I can't put it into words. The only thing I can say is: "Damn". You were and still are the most satisfying sexual partner too bad it had to end. Tonight is one of those nights were I recall you late night visits and our passionate nights. We haven't been together for awhile now, but if I close my eyes I can feel every inch of your manhood against my sugar walls. On this night I wish the door was unlocked and I was waking up to you inside of me for one last time.

PS: One more time I want to beaver on top of you!

J.O.D.D.

Hmmm...
I haven't gotten any in almost two weeks and I'm feeling slightly deprived.
I know he's busy doing what he does, but damn 2 weeks...2 weeks is enough to make a sista wanna find some dick that is going to be more consistent.
April will be the one year anniversary of our "gentleman's agreement" and I'm thinking that I'm ready to take our relationship to that next level.
That's right I want to blindfold him and tie him up.
S & M has always been interesting to me. The whole idea of dominance is a turn on....what can I say...I'm experimental.
This is gonna be a little trick cause baby likes to be in charge in the bedroom, but we'll just have to change that now won't we.